I was very nervous about sharing my journey with you. Although I am not looking for validation from anyone, I am doing this for me; I also did not want to be shamed into stopping everything either. It has been a very interesting experience and a real test of my confidence levels since I started making my blog public to my friends, family and strangers.
The responses have ranged from ‘this is great!‘, ‘you’re an inspiration‘, ‘keep it up‘ to ……’what a joke this is‘, ‘you must have way too much time on your hands‘, ‘don’t you think you are a little old for this‘, ‘seems like you are a little too into yourself to think you are better than the rest of us‘.
The first set of responses obviously made me feel fantastic….the rest, a real test in controlling my emotions.
I wasn’t offended by the latter comments, but I’ll admit, my confidence levels took a bit of hit.
In a previous post, I stated why I started blogging. I am doing it for me.
But why am I sharing it?
First – Staying Positive.
Based on media clips lately, there is so much negativity out there..Trump, Meryl Streep, Ronda Rousey, Trudeau, just to name a few. I am so tired of the constant bashing from one group to another. Whatever their reasons for doing or saying what they have, it takes courage for them to go against the general population’s beliefs. Try to look at the positive in each negative situation, no matter what, there is always a silver lining to every situation (even if it’s a thin one)
Second – Talk the Talk, Walk the Talk.
Not everyone warms up to things as quickly as others. By me sharing my fears and joys, maybe others will take a moment, see that they are not alone in their feelings and look inside themselves hopefully breaking through that barrier called fear. I mention a lot about women empowering women, but please do not take this as I am all mighty feminist. I am not. These thoughts apply to all of us, regardless of gender, size, race or employment.
Third – It’s Important.
We announce weddings and funerals. We announce wins and losses.
We scream from the mountain tops how proud we are of our kids, all those mommy and daddy proud moment Facebook posts.
We announce everything and anything that is important to us.
Jiu Jitsu has become very important to me. It has rewarded me with self-confidence, empowerment, a new extended family, and a happy heart and soul. I love how it has pushed so many of my triggers and Atos has provided a very safe environment for me to overcome them.
I read a post titled “What Are You Giving Back to Jiu Jitsu?“
My contribution to Jiu Jitsu and the female community – by publishing my blog, I hope to reach as many women as possible out there to show them that although Jiu Jitsu may seem crazy intimidating at first, it is totally worth giving it a chance. #GirlPower
My contribution to my fellow Jiujiteiros – to give you kudos for your patience and determination in helping me learn and practice my techniques to earn my stripes and not giving up on me just because I am a woman. #RealMenEmpowerWomen
My contribution to Pura Atos Hamilton – is to highlight the fantastically amazing
environment that Professor PJ, his training crew and all the practitioners who strive to better themselves everyday on and off the mat. I cannot thank you enough for making me feel welcome at the same time, giving me the space I need to grow at my own pace. #TogetherWeAreStronger